When I left cheap escorts, I felt that I wanted to start all over again. At that time, I had not only worked for London escorts but I had also acted in porn movies and been an adult model. It took me some time, but in many ways I wanted to let go of my past. I took a page out of Louise Hayes book “You can heal your life”, and let go of the many things that bothered me. I re-invented myself as a health guru and became rather popular online with a lot of people. Yes, it was a bit of turn around for me.
Around the same time, I met this really brilliant man and fell in love. I was now a bit older and my life with cheap escorts seemed in the past. In the end, I decided not to tell this love of my life about my other life. London escorts and my porn career never came up in conversation and I did not bring it up. To be honest, I started to tell a lot of stories. Now, I have become overwhelmed by all of these stories and cannot keep it up. I don’t know what is real any more.
Have I healed my life? I really think that I was a much healthier person mentally when I worked for cheap escorts. I used to be proud to answer the question that this website is where you find the cheapest escorts, who are also quality. Now I feel a real fraud and I know that one day my life is going to implode. But, I am not so sure that confessing everything to my husband would be the right thing to do at all. I am sure that he would not really appreciate my London escorts career and hearing about my exploits as a porn star.
The only problem is that we have started to move in many of the circles where I am likely to bump into gents from my cheap escorts career. Many of the gents that I dated at London escorts were leading business men. My husband runs a very successful business and I know that he deals with some of these gents. So far, I have been able to avoid parties and stuff like that. My husband says that I have become a recluse and that is true. I don’t know any other way in which I can avoid these gents that I do not want to meet again.
I wish that I could talk to somebody. Even some of my old friends from London escorts think that I have gone a bit strange. Of course, they have told their partners the truth and they are okay with it. Perhaps this American concept of re-inventing yourself is not such a good idea after all, I am sure that some women have benefited from it, but I am not so sure that I will at all. As a matter of fact, I keep on wishing that I had never heard of Louise Hayes and started the process. Now I am too far into it and I just don’t know what to do.